Loud silence

                L O U D      S I L E N C E

Sometimes I find myself battling with series of thoughts, I could act a whole season of my favourite series in my head. These thoughts are a combination of good, bad and very ugly words. Some yelling at us, some on the opposite side of our conflicting minds and the others are like a pulse wave on and off in our heads.

Each of us has an internal dialogue, an inner conversation going on with ourselves throughout the day. We talk more to ourselves than we do to anyone else. Like a market filled with lots of people so are our minds filled with the rowdiness and a crowd of voices constantly speaking to us.
There's a little voice amongst these voices as little as it might be, its intensity is more powerful than the  rushing thoughts in our heads and the loud voices in the mouths of  society, that tiny little voice is the loudest whisper that bangs on the  doors of our minds, ignore it how you want but it doesn't go away.
It's a whisper that moves through the thickest walls and yes!!! Even the walls have ears and our bodies are the walls to our hearts from where thoughts originate yet our ears on the walls listen to rumbles of  unspoken thoughts deep inside

Elijah had found himself in the tightest corner with Jezebel, she had sworn on all her gods to kill him in 24hours. Fear was all Elijah could feel, running away was the only reasonable but temporary way out, he could be running away from his present situation but his mind was stuck at his predicament, he had series of conversations in his head
"This is too much Lord, take my life already," he thought.
the tug of war between the negative voices and the whispers began but at that point fear didn't let him give in to the whispers, the ranging negativity was winning the battle of his mind "they will kill me the moment the find me, I can't do this anymore take my life now God before Jezebel gets to me, I am as good as a dead man walking"
These and a hundred other thoughts were all that occupied his mind. Then God decided to show himself to Elijah, the furious wind came that shattered rocks but God wasn't there. Then an earthquake; Elijah was like "yes this has to be God he's coming to shake and break the grounds of Jezebel" but God wasn't still there, next fire; "ah! My consuming fire he's here to burn down all my enemies" Elijah thought, but God wasn't still there.
Finally a soft whisper of a voice there God was, he had to come in to oppose the battle on Elijah's mind, to calm his mind from drifting away to fear and worry. (1kings.19)
There's a whisper trapped amiss  the numerous thoughts on our minds, some call it the voice of God, others call it conscience, instincts,inner guts or whatever you may decide to call it  but  it exists deep down on the inside, a voice that tells you the truth,  a voice that tells you what is right and what's wrong, a voice that puts down any evil thoughts that creep into the doors of your soul, a voice that calms your negativity. The battle of the mind is only won by the voice you listen to and now the question is which of the voices do you listen to and follow through with? The banging voice in your head justifying the wrong you just did or the inaudible soft whisper you can barely hear.
A soft whisper will become loud silence pointing you in the right direction if we hush the rowdiness of the banging voice.